I’m in a philosophical mood today. As I see it, the only good thing about not moving forwards at a rate of knots is that I’m not going backwards at a rate of knots. Well, the odd whoopsie excepted of course. I had to work hard at getting to philosophical, from a starting position of pissed off, and I’ve been reflecting all weekend on how I could do better. I was convinced that yesterday’s weigh-in was going to be a disaster. Lets be honest most weigh-ins just recently haven’t exactly been the stuff that dreams are made of, have they? I didn’t feel skinny either as I walked the Shitbird mile, and that’s never a good sign.
I am trying so hard to get it right. The top of the year got off to a cracking start but despite working out as much as I’ve been able with my busted knee, and counting, weighing, in fact obsessing over everything that goes in my mouth – and let’s be honest, plenty of stuff that doesn’t – I’ve barely moved the needle from where it was in early April and I don’t know about you, but to me that feels like a lot of effort for sweet bugger-all progress. I’m grateful for my solid 2lbs loss this week and I’m feeling more in control, but that’s still two whole months’ worth of trying hard without really going anywhere.
And yes, I know the fuck-up fairy paid a four day visit in the mix but really, two months?
I feel like I’ve been treading water, and it’s so much harder to try and stay motivated when the needle is barely moving, don’t you think? With north of one hundred pounds left to lose, surely they should be shifting more quickly than this? Come on you Gods of Skinny, throw me a bone here. I’m not even pitching for fireworks when I step on the scale, I just want to see steady progress. I don’t want to be sitting here two months from now trying to justify to myself why the number on the scale is the same as it was in early June.
My head panicked and jumped around all over the place last week, especially after my mid-week Shitbird check-in when it looked like the number might have gone higher still. I mentally rifled through all the fad diets I’ve ever done, desperately trying to recall the one that had helped me drop loads of weight really quickly and then keep it off. Oh yes that’s right, silly me…there wasn’t one. There’s no such thing as a quick fix, and that’s why my arse would still give your average moose a run for its money.
On the upside, the No Count plan seemed to work okay for me last week, and my 2lbs loss made me feel a lot more positive so I’m going to keep it going. I dropped a few balls in the first couple of days as I was navigating my way around it, but I feel better prepared this week, and I shopped yesterday like I knew what I was doing. Time will tell, right?
The Asshole voice has piped down now I’ve kicked sugar to the kerb and cut off his oxygen. My meals are planned and I’m not working away this week so all my stars are aligned…I just need to deliver. Come on, lets go for two more 🙂
Sugar is my drug of choice, as i tell people when they ask why i won’t have “just a little” dessert. Like any addict, i have to stay away from that first bite.
You can do this!
Thanks Mimi, yes I believe I can!
Funny, that’s what I say when people offer me alcohol. No thanks, sugar is my drug of choice! Hand over the dessert.
Oh dear Natalie!
Oh-kay! As I choose to hear you say, as I believe, (goddamm I have to believe), the journey is not actually down the # display on a bathroom scale. Need to remain securely belted in on THAT thrill ride…
Made a conscious readjustment to the System that you utilized before, with indisputable results. You did a double-take on your impulse to fling away your whole toolbelt to grab at a crash diet. (Dieter’s Old-Think)!
Keep thinking, keep talking, keep journaling. Let’s keep turning our powers of concentration to our Process.
Yes Fleury!! I had a moment, but I’m good…come on, you know I lose the plot from time to time! ?
Congrats on losing the two pounds. Progress is still progress even if its slow its still moving in the right direction.
That’s true Susan…I’d still like to grease the pole a bit though!
Two pounds is great Dee and I’m glad you were able to navigate simply filling! People do swear by it. Maybe that’s the new normal for you.
Believe me I’m in the same boat swinging up and down the same two pounds for months. It sucks. But the summer clothes I wore this weekend absolutely were bigger than they were last summer – so I guess we just keep on keeping on.
Good luck this week!
Thanks lovely, you too! ?
Hang in there, Dee. Protein was key for my weight loss. I get in a minimum of 100 grams per day. If you are doing all the right things, visit your doctor. Blood work may be necessary to make sure your body is working the way Itbis supposed to.
Yes I think protein helps me feel full for longer without a doubt ?
Good job in giving up added sugar. I think that is smart.
There is a lot of sugar in some fruits, like bananas. A lot. There are other fruits, like some berries, that are much lower in sugar and higher in fiber. All fruit is not created equal. That has helped me hugely over the years.
You are a very clever writer. I have enjoyed your posts. Wishing you continued success.
Thanks so much for your lovely feedback, I appreciate that ? And you know what Vickie I’d never really considered how much sugar was in different types of fruit. I just thought fruit was fruit, right? That’s useful and I’ll definitely review what I’m buying, thanks for that!
If that is the case, you might want to log using MyFitnessPal for a while. It will show you the amount of sugar within carbs. It will show you the different levels of fat. It will track your goals and show you all the breakdowns. There is no “free” food list, it will accurately show you everything. The no charge version is what most of us use. No need to pay for the bells and whistles plan. And if you have not had all that information before, it might make a great deal of difference.
There is a huge difference in the calorie and sugar levels on the WW free food list. If someone was picking the lower sugar things, like green veggies, it would do less damage to think of them as free. However, two bananas is a whole lot of sugar and probably should not be thought of as “free”.
Hi Vickie, I might have a look at it…I do know a lot of people who swear by it. I need to get over myself first, my asshole voice is currently rebelling against counting anything and it’s an ongoing battle!